while writing this post, tears streamed down my cheeks.
thinking how touched i am, thinking how life would be if she wasnt here for me.

My maid told me this - she told me, what my grandma said to her.
" what if i die one day ? there will be nobody to take care of Eugenia. "

- If i dont come home after 10.30, she'll start calling and worrying like a mother..
- If i needed to buy things, she'll give me money like a father..
- If i needed someone to talk to, she'll talk to me, like a grandma.
- If i needed support, she'll be like one, like a grandpa...
 People with good families, dont know they live well.
They pretend to be ignorant and think they're treated badly..
They don't respect their parents and yet scolds them..
If only i had a family like that.
i'd be more than happy..
People just dont know how lucky they are..

I only wished, he'd put his hand over my shoulder, pat me on the back and praise me saying good job..
I only wished, he'd laugh with me and tell me jokes again..
I only wished.. if i hadnt spilled the beans years back..

Where did the laughter go to?
Where did the family warmth go to?
Where did my father go to?
He always worry about money and stuff.
But he still scolds me over the littlest of things..

i'm living today cause of her.
not for the sake of her.
but because she is there for me.

...

im happy to see her laugh.
Because she's my everything .


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& I'm done for the day; ♥EugeniaC.Tenshix3cle

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